Life As I Know It

Life As I Know It

Sunday, December 30, 2012

What a Difference a Year Can Make

I am not too big on New Year's resolutions, does anyone really ever keep them?  I usually feel more disappointed in myself if I make one and then it falls by the wayside just a short time later.  I prefer to reflect on the last year and remember all the ups and downs, joys and sorrows, good times and bad times and look forward to what the next year will bring.  And as I sit here writing tonight listening to my favorite music, drinking a cup of decaf hot chocolate, and feeling my daughter kick I am filled with such joy. 

Last year at this time I can honestly say I was at my lowest of low points.  January 3rd will mark the one year anniversary of losing our 3rd baby.  Although I found out in  November that the pregnancy was no longer progressing, my body took it's good old time in physically miscarrying.  I remember those feelings I was processing and emotions I was dealing with as though it was yesterday.  We entered into 2012 with absolute broken hearts and wounded spirits.  Tonight we are leaving 2012 with a beautiful baby girl on the way who is healthy and active.  What a difference a year can make. 

If you had told me last year at this time that I would be sitting here tonight with my husband's hand on my belly feeling our daughter kick and starting to make preparations for her nursery I would have literally laughed out loud and told you you were nuts.  I would have said we would not even try again in 2012 and that it seemed impossible that it could ever happen for us.  Oh how little faith I had a year ago.  What a difference a year can make.

This past week we had the joy of spending Chrismas with my family in Pennsylvania.  Although a little early we also had a baby shower since that was the last time I will be home before she is born.  Griff and I were absolutely showered in love by friends and family.  Our little girl is so blessed.  We even announced her name...Maile (My-lee) Grace.  Named after Griff's beloved grandmother, Mai, and his family name Le.  Grace was the obvious choice for her middle name as we have been shown so much grace in this pregnancy that it is only fitting.  What a difference a year can make.

So instead of dreading what the next days and weeks would bring like I was last year entering into 2012, I am looking forward to 2013 more so than ever!  In just a few short months our lives are going to be forever changed when Maile Grace arrives!  What a difference a year can make!